an apple dream no more

mood: geeky music: the joker by fatboy slim


in its january 2005 issue, newsweek featured the latest revolutionary products of apple: the mini mac and ipod shuffle. i described as such these pieces of technology because, unlike steven jobs' forerunner inventions, they are pitched for the lowend market. (woohoo! finally, i can seriously start avoiding my unnecessary expenses to join the ipod bandwagon. you'll see.)

mini mac (left), marked at $500 is as small as
a typical lunchbox.

ipod shuffle is only $99. enough said.

freaky benny experience

yesterday, i experienced another 'soul searching' moment.

this is when i attempt an astral projection of some sort. it never fails to turn into a transitory spiritual awakening afterwards. after seeing myself as another form of entity, i get scared of coming to face with somebody who resembles me that becomes unrecognizable due to a disturbing personality aura radiating all over the background. i soon assess how i have absurdly lived my life and turn to Him in prayer. i wonder how i can prolong the experience enough for me to regularly hear mass again after a two-year hiatus.

spiritual awareness, fortunately, is strongly advocated by few born-again christian organizations in all types of media.books created to discuss this issue are hard to fathom. or, im just plain lazy to go out of my way and start going in that direction. but i found solace in a medium lent to me- the tv, which, through rpn 9, airs benny hinn ministries or bhm.

bennyhinn.org, the official website of bhm, says the group is aimed at "always winning souls to Jesus Christ." i havent met anyone who can attest to this, but, im pretty sure its pastoral leader is enough proof for lost souls who patronize bhm.

benny hinn is a charismatic leader. he's eloquent and looks convincing in a mystical way. his cliche preaching, ironically, drove me at my wits end. i caught him one time praying over his listeners. apparently his praying will alleviate body illlness. i had lower back pains then who knows i might get healed. all of sudden, he was going on and on, mentioning all the body parts he could think of that he bore me. when i grabbed the remote control he caught me by surprise by saying, "wait, wait (what th f_ _ _ _? are you insane?)...you're about to change the channel (freaking a _ _). please listen to this. don't you know you have a lung cancer? (omg!.he is serious.) yes. i can see you. you, in white shirt with a pair of glasses..."

shoot. he almost got me. good thing i have a 20/20 vision; was in a pink top; and named cha. not albert.

many happy returns of the day, mich!

mood: lalalala song: breakaway by kelly clarkson

the "fishnet" girl everyone in strike team loves for what she is...



please ignore mr biko, partly hidden.

condoning culture of voyeurism in the office and its benefits

mood: resentful

the colors and i

mood: silly song: none

i just finished this pseudo-psycho game from www.chinapaint.com. according to this site, colors and how you associate them with your life can apparently reflect much about yourself. (duh!)
my results pretty much satisfied me. although knowing i had no business acumen, and that i am materialistic scared the hell out of me.

my 2004 anthem

mood: happy/obsessive-compulsive music: real by the plumb

look at me i'm 23
beautiful a sight to see
tonight
a little dress to draw the press
and I'll be leaving
all the rest behind
well be pleased girl
if this is what you wanted
the whole world is watching you take the stage
what will you say
aren't i lovely
and do you want me cause
i am hungry for something that will make me real
can you see me and
do you love me cause
i am desperately searching for something
real
i close my eyes imagine time
will not forget
my sacrifice
i numb the ache and decorate
my emptiness
stand naked in the light
well be pleased world
if this is what you wanted
this young girl is everything that you made
what will she say
aren't i lovely
and do you want me cause
i am hungry for something that will make me real
can you see me and
do you love me cause
i am desperately searching for something
real
the world goes home
the lights go down
my lipstick fades
away
aren't i lovely
and do you want me cause
i am hungry for something that will make me real
can you see me and
do you love me cause
i am desperately searching for something
real
aren't i lovely
and do you want me cause
i am hungry for something that will make me real
can you see me and
do you love me cause
i am desperately searching for something
real

lyrics by tiffany arbuckle